The Depth

So here we are in 2016 and what a marvelous year it has potential to be.  I say it that way because that is what I am determined to believe and make happen.  The power to do so is my power to cultivate.  Sometime near the end of summer 2015, I decided to take the first step in cultivating that power.  I started treating my body more as the temple for my soul, and less like a cheap lean-to.  It was only the beginning. Even good things can be overdone when not balanced properly.

The next step was to get myself busy again.  Everyday I woke up for the past 5 or so years, I woke up just a little further from myself without even noticing it, until one day I was so far gone that returning to my center seemed an insurmountable challenge.  My next challenge is much more daunting: professional growth.  It happened to coincide with the new year but I’m not one for New Year’s resolutions.  The scariest part is not the fear of failure.  No I have failed countless times in the past and am confident I will fail countless more times to come.  No the fear isn’t of failure, it is of success.  Success scares the snot out of me.  Let me explain.  I have always been a noncommittal individual.  The reason being, I always wanted to make sure I had the option to jump to something better if it came along.  Success is the opposite of that.  It is a level of commitment I have always avoided.  I suppose what I am saying is success is scarier than failure because it is a much more significant decision.

How do I get past those fears to keep pushing?  I workout.  This is where it all begins to work in tandem.  I put in my headphones and pedal a bike until I stop thinking about the pain in my muscles, I stop thinking about the fear, I stop thinking about the things that are distracting me and I get down to the most basic focus on power.  I’m not talking about the power to lift a car.  I’m talking about the the belief that we have the power to achieve all we believe we are worthy of and BELIEVING we are worthy of it.  The world goes away, I am left with me, and that is a great place to be.  The more I do this, the smaller the issues appear and the more focused the goals become.

Do yourself a favor.  Find your power.


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